sorry for ignoring you

i still can't describe this feeling. i'm still confusing with what i feel. i can't just tell myself that i do, and i can't just tell myself that i don't. fall in love with you.

i still can't tell how was it happened. it just like that. undefined. unexpectable. unbelieved.
you have a beautiful face and also good mind. but, i never thought that i like you because of that. because, i believe that i'll never have a crush with someone because of their face..
i know. that the first time i know you, my head said that you're gorgeous. but.. it just like that. there's no other feelings.
and.. i was so stupid that thought i will never close to you. but, something has made a thing! unexpectedly, you greet me.. i was so startled and thought that it was a coincidence.. but it's a thing yeah? haha

being with you, i always blushing. fyi, i never blushed like that. only certain people that have been fill my heart can do that. with you, i feel like becoming someone else. you're always make me smile and laugh. even if you just stand and quite, you'll always entertained me. being with you, made me happy, made me feel so lucky and made me so beautiful.. because you're talking to me relaxly. storied about something disgusting, something weird and something that we're the only one know and do about that. you're so special to me.

but..

and i now.. i just a idiot person that believed something which i know will never happen. i know that you're just like a fantasy for me. being with you is a zero-chance. there's many girls adore and run for you. they're beauty and also clever. but me? just an ordinary girl with a standard face and brain. i dont know how to make you mine.
you and yours are made to make me smile. even you're not mine, i'll always trust and happy for you.. :")

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memilih mata kuliah = memilih jodoh

ih sumpah ya semester ini memusingkan sekali..
ternyata ga mudah yah kuliah.. ribet..
apalagi pas milih mata kuliah, pusing banget
kadang serba salah.. takut salah lah apalah
mana dosen wali gw agak susah lagi diajak konsul
wualah pening mak!

temen-temen gw kebanyakan ngambil hukum ekonomi sama antropologi hukum.
gw puyeng.. mau ngambil apa, mau ikut2an takut nyesel..
gw pun iseng2 chat sama abi ganteng dan kebetulan dia ambil PK Internasional (seperti maunya gw).
akhirnya gw berguru ke abi ganteng dan dia menyarankan agar gw mengambil hukum perikatan dan hukum lingkungan.
nah gw linglung lagi nih, mana temen2 gw pada ga jelas.

akhirnya gw bisa berkonsultasi dengan dosen wali gw..
dan akhirnya gw ambil hukum ekonomi dan hukum perikatan.
alhamdulillah hukum ekonomi dosennya asik, namun hukum perikatan.. hhhhh
puyeeenggg... mana tadi pas ngajar suaranya kecil, kelas kepenuhan, ribut, tulisannya kacau..
walah walah
mana gw salah masuk kelas dan nulis absen lagii
akhirnya gw terjebak saja disana..
tapi untungnya ada dani.. hehe.. bergurulah nanti sama dia kalo ga ngerti.
semoga nanti lancar-lancar saja dan pas uts ama uas lancarr
amiinn

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I HATE YOU, MAN

maybe that's the word that i want to scream out now
whereas it's hours ago i told someone that your special

why you give me this?
why are you like that?
why you're so rough?
i was so dissapointed of you

it's been a week we didn't met
and i miss you more that 2 months we've didn't even seeing each other
and i thought you're the same like me

i thought you were the kindest guy i've ever seen
and you were the shiest and the oddest guy i've ever been together
and i realize that you're more than just friend and i cant deny it

but now you cut it down
thrown me away
and make my heart empty

thank you for the moment
thank you for made me crazy about you
and thank you i hate you now, man

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