sorry for ignoring you

i still can't describe this feeling. i'm still confusing with what i feel. i can't just tell myself that i do, and i can't just tell myself that i don't. fall in love with you.

i still can't tell how was it happened. it just like that. undefined. unexpectable. unbelieved.
you have a beautiful face and also good mind. but, i never thought that i like you because of that. because, i believe that i'll never have a crush with someone because of their face..
i know. that the first time i know you, my head said that you're gorgeous. but.. it just like that. there's no other feelings.
and.. i was so stupid that thought i will never close to you. but, something has made a thing! unexpectedly, you greet me.. i was so startled and thought that it was a coincidence.. but it's a thing yeah? haha

being with you, i always blushing. fyi, i never blushed like that. only certain people that have been fill my heart can do that. with you, i feel like becoming someone else. you're always make me smile and laugh. even if you just stand and quite, you'll always entertained me. being with you, made me happy, made me feel so lucky and made me so beautiful.. because you're talking to me relaxly. storied about something disgusting, something weird and something that we're the only one know and do about that. you're so special to me.

but..

and i now.. i just a idiot person that believed something which i know will never happen. i know that you're just like a fantasy for me. being with you is a zero-chance. there's many girls adore and run for you. they're beauty and also clever. but me? just an ordinary girl with a standard face and brain. i dont know how to make you mine.
you and yours are made to make me smile. even you're not mine, i'll always trust and happy for you.. :")